*sigh*

Maybe I'm manic depressive...

Today I feel extremely sad and alone. I'm no one's top priority anymore. Everyone has their own lives. It's not fair or reasonable of me to think they should or can say hi. They have their own joys and burdens to concern themselves with. I've been taking everyone for granted. I'm sorry. Hope is one thing, expecting something to happen is another. I'm just so lonely. My main love language is touch. I used to get hugged a lot everyday, now I go days without being touched. I like strong hugs and most people don't give them. I'm starting to feel more. I don't like it, but I need to. It just makes me feel more alone. It hurts so much and the pain is so deep. I just pray it doesn't break me.

Relay For Life

What an emotional, invigorating, powerful, liberating and life-changing event! How much more awesome can you get?! How riveting! I hope I can go to one this year. I don't know what I'd be doing for sure, but I really want to go. Next year, I hope to participate on a team walking around the track. I'm not sure how it's all going to go down or what it all entails, but I'm excited and more passionate about it than ever! I'll participate for as long as I am able. I can't even accurately describe how I feel about it and I haven't even been to one yet! I'm certain this is just something you have to experience to truly understand and I'm ready for it!

May God get the glory through it all.

Random Q

And the why's have it...

Why do you suppose that Televisions make a Clicking noise when they are turned on and off? Hmm, maybe to tell us they're on - or off? Maybe the television companies just want to annoy us? Maybe it's to help us not feel so lonely? =P Idk...

Hey, well now, if my answer didn't satisfy you (which I totally understand), check out:

Books
LR
Magma
Mae

Or even if it did - Check the others out!

Truly Alone

The silence is deafening. It makes me crazy. I. Can't. Handle. Being. Alone. The loneliness is getting to me. It wasn't supposed to be this way - not yet. Not for years to come. It hurts and makes me angry when I think about it. If she was allowed to stay everything would be different. I wouldn't feel so incomplete. And I wouldn't be alone.

RandOM QUEstioN!

This month's random question is: "If you could visit one event that takes place in history which one would you go to?"

Hmm, there's a lot of history to think through. My mind is really fuzzy, so I'm not thinking well at the moment. I'm sick and on medicine, plus my grief - depression related exhaustion doesn't help anything. Maybe going back to the starting of the Salvation Army would be cool. Or going back to the start of A.L. Hospice. Or the start of Bible quizzing. Or the start of TFC in town. Or the start of Dare2Share. I dunno. Probably the start of A.L. Hospice. Or something like that...

If you thought my answer was even the slightest bit interesting, check out any of these WAY MORE EXCITING blogs:

LR's Rock Spot
Books' Hidden Corner
Mae's Page
Magma's Lava Pad

Peace out ya'll.

Random Question!

I missed doing the question last month, due to moving and just other stuff going on, so I've decided to answer it now. Better late than never, eh?

What is your favourite type of vegetable, and what fruit would said vegetable marry if it could marry?

Hmm, my favorite type of veggie would just happen to be: Bob the tomato. Tomatoes are culinary vegetables, but botanical fruits. It's my story and I'm stickin' to it! He might marry Madame Blueberry. Well, it could happen. Anything is possible...

Eh, heh, well, I never said I was normal. =P

Tired

I feel so tired, like I could sleep for days, though I know my body wouldn't let me. I can't even sleep for 6 hours straight without waking up at least twice. I hope to be happy someday. I'm just not sure if it's possible at this point.